are so kind.. taking your time and cheering me on.. I appreciate it SO! awww..
So, we finally met our new social worker. We have been on her case load since the start of October, but this was our first time meeting her.
I *heart* her.
I think she likes us too.
And, for some reason, in my head that makes us feel like we have a better chance.
I also finally figured out what this whole process feels like. It feels like high school when I would be waiting and waiting and waiting for a boy to call. I would look at the phone.. "ring. just ring. just CALL... why isn't he CALLING????".... I would pick up the receiver and make sure there was a dial tone. (pick up the receiver-- just think-- kids don't even know what that is anymore)
THIS waiting is like that. I look at my phone when I have been away from it - if even for a moment. I think I hear it ringing or feel it vibrating when it was nothing.
Just like in high school when that guy never called and I felt so shitty because of it... I can't help but feel that way now. Just head games.
and I know.. I promise... I know that it will happen for us. That the phone will ring when I am least expecting it... probably when it is the most inconvenient.
It is just weird that it is THAT feeling.. yanno?
Right after I had this epiphany, I ate two 1pt chocolate cake things. Connection. YeahIthinkso.
Thanks again, everyone for your support. I look forward to more milestones to post :)
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