Tuesday, January 18, 2011

Concentrate on the Good

I have easily fallen into this frame of mind that I haven't been able to find my way out of. Of course I feel happiness, but I am always one hallm@rk commercial away from tears. I read a facebook of a dear old friend- and she said this:

(just part of the posting)....meditate on the gloriousness of these complications in the positive ways they affect you. For example how the smile of a stranger can brighten your day or how the old man you held the door open for last week said thank you...

I had an Oprah moment. I sat still for a second and it clicked. THAT is what I have been missing.. I have been pushing all the little bits of happiness to the side, and I have fallen into the pity party pit of 1. A party pit of many is a grand time-- but when it is just lil ol' me... booorrriinnggg.

On my ride to work I decided I would concentrate on the smalls. The lil'bits. The simple smiles. And today, I have.

As a previous commenter said about her situation while waiting for her daughter: the wait was hard... but she was waiting for the best.

Happy list for today:
  • My dermatologist appointment went great, I got things removed that weren't supposed to be there and my new doc is hot in a hippy straight male sorta way...and I was given the all clear on my weird spots. Though, I felt like a geek sitting on his table with my bucket undies, my worst bra and a paper towel covering me and only one leg shaved because that is all I intended on showing him. He took it all in stride.
  • one of my closest friends made "the" appointment for her and her partner to start their family rolling. eeeeep!!!!!!! :)
  • Tomorrow I am ordering my rug hooking stand and I am going to the fabric store with my girls. Yeah. I get it. I am a granny. I love it!! :)
  • Plans for the weekend are solidified
  • Grandma B is going home from the hospital

Side note.. yanno when you get a twitch in your eye.. and you feel like everyone can see it- and you can't get it to go away. I have one in my left butt cheek. It has been there for 2 days... and it may drive me to the mental hospital.

Thank you all for sticking through this with me. xo


Amy said...

OMG the butt cheek thing is awesome!
Good for you thinking of the positive. I haven't figured out how to do that yet.

paradykes said...

Yikes, I totally understand the pity party of one!!! I'm glad you're looking to the positive and starting to do some things that make you happy. I started doing an art journal like the ones at http://thekathrynwheel.blogspot.com/ check it out it's really fun and creative and a great outlet for the pity party feelings. I know how hard it is to hear it'll happen, it'll happen so I'm not going to say it. Just know that one day you will be a great mommy!

Mark said...

Now you're on the trolley!
Your Friend, m.

cindyhoo2 said...

Staying positive is such a struggle, yet vital for happiness. I notice myself thinking, "if I had/did (fill in thing, activity, perfect body, etc) THEN I would be really happy." but the truth is that nothing can make you happy or unhappy, we all have to choose happiness every day- every hour- every moment. Thanks for the reminder.

That butt cheek thing cracked me up. Do you think people can see your ass twitching?? :)

Mel's Way or No Way said...

OMG I've never had the butt cheek one...the eye I had for months when I started my job. I had to keep reminding my boss I wasn't winking at him. :)

I'm trying to drag my own butt out of the winter blues...I think I'm winning.

Pomegranate said...

i'm glad you're feeling positive!

Pomegranate said...

ps: all positive people are actually quite insane. you have to be to stay positive.

MakingSpace said...

I like this idea of noticing the good small things just THERE in the peripheral vision of our awareness... I am going to try that...