being at work today. The quiet is inviting, and I can have my pandora radio playing in the background. We have a new roof to pay for, after all. The joys of home ownership.
Remember when Oprah was really pushing The Secret.. the law of attraction and all that jazz? Then I think she even said that she invented it or something. Doesn't she always ad that little jab in there.. about how she has been doing such and such forever.. Anyways..
I was all over that Secret stuff.. If you think happy thoughts, you will attract happy and be MORE happy and happiness will seep out of your pours and then you will win the lottery.
Somewhere I fell off the Secret wagon and I got secret scrapes and bruises. I am struggling, but I want to be back on that wagon. I really believe it works. If it doesn't, I will at least be a more pleasant person in life.
If I think positive, if I have a smile on my face, look for the good in others, enjoy life, believe that the struggles I have will be overcome... why WOULDN'T things go my way? Sometimes I think we humans get stuck in a doomsday train of thought.... all of the "my life sucks, I will never succeed, I will never get what I want, I will never be the person I want to be.." etc...etc.. I have recently heard people use the term.. FML... "fuck my life". I cringe. Fuck your life? Let me give you a list of people who would much rather HAVE your life.
All in all I know these things to be true:
1. I am loved.
2. I love.
3. I have more then most, and don't need more... of everything.
4. I am blessed.
I know that there will continue to be blessings in my life. I need to stop looking for the BIG ONES and really marvel and give thanks for the little ones... those add up.
So, yes, I may be sitting at work on an absolutely beautiful Saturday afternoon... I am blessed.. I have a job that will give money to put towards a roof to give shelter to my amazing family and friends. That roof will one day cover the head of our child.
To the universe, I say thank you. I am thankful for even the hardest most horrid times in my life, for I was alive to go through them, and those times made me the person I am today.
.....If you turn it over to the universe, you will be surprised and dazzled by what is delivered .. this is where magic and miracles happen.....
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