Sometimes God (Goddess, the Universe, etc.. ) gives you challenges. I believe without a doubt, that you are given what you can hold on your broad shoulders.... and that there is a plan for everyone, even if we don't know it at the moment we are dealing with the road blocks.
There is a lot going down at Mics job right now. A lot. I have never seen her like this. Depressed, worried, stomach knots, self doubt... it is time for me to step up, put my brave face on, and to be her rock...
I am up to the challenge.. for her I will do anything.
Yesterday was the dreaded weigh in. I made some HORRIBLE choices this week. I accounted for everything in my little book. It was rough. But, hey, I had a good time doing it. I had a wonderful dinner at Lulus in Bayview on Thursday after bellydancing, and this past weekend Mo and Greg were here - that was redonkulous. I don't want food to "bring me down" I just want to be a normal person, making better choices, and really being conscious of what is going in my mouth (thats what she said)
I am down 1.6 this week. I am okay with that. I am not HAPPY. But, at least it was in the right direction.
There is a LOT going on this weekend! We have our big Wildtree party at Luxe salon tonight- it is an organic salon in Shorewood. This is my first show since the "Massive Screw Up of 2009".. when I had a panic attack in the middle of my presentation. Yeah. It was as horrid as it sounds. So, I have been practicing, and I will have a glass of wine, and it will be great!
Tomorrow Mic and I are headed off to the Milwaukee Mitchel Park Domes where they are having a natural health fair... and it just so happens that the bellydance troupe that I take classes with is going to perform there... and, we are checking out the open house at Cosmos doggy day care- Central Bark!
Please, everyone keep their fingers crossed for my friend Angie who is trying to sell her house in the beautiful neighborhood of Washington Heights! (I can't find a link to the house on the Shorewest site, or I would have done it ;) )
Okay- I suppose I should get some work done. We have 3 services today, and a bunch this weekend. I need to get my head in the game!
I was weighed in today. Its weird. a bunch of fatties waiting in line to get on a scale. Talk about beads of sweat, juuurrrl... 'walkin the line' is not my favorite part of my Thursday!
Though, I am down 6.8lbs. I got a round of applause, a bookmark (for actually coming back to the meetings a second time) and a 5lb sticker. I blushed and accepted the sticker from the leader, and then ate her hand.
Well, at Milwaukee Pridefest, they have three main entertainers (and a ton of others) as you have read, Cyndi Lauper is on Friday, and now they have announced that Saturday is Brandy. So... okay.. its cool.. I don't really know her, but I dig.
I dont' think blogs are that bad of a thing to obsess over. I am not living in a pretend world.. it feeds my nosey cravings.. and it gives me motivation. I have found a group of diet blogs. LOVE THEM. How MOTIVATING is it to know that people out there have the same daily struggles I do? That there are others who day dream about things like: the cake that is in the fridge in the kitchen just down <----- there. (I never knew that a funeral home would have so much g-d food in it. BAH.) .
I have been working the WW pretty darn well this first week back, if I don't say so meself. I have been writing EVERYTHING down, even on GNO when I ate and drank SO MUCH. Difference this time: I am accountable for it. In the past, I could easily go to McD's after bar then go to bed 8.39 minutes later. After writing it all down, and seeing the points.. I wont be doing that mindless binging again.
We have had it planned for a while-- and last night we actually went through with our Girls Night Out which consisted of Anne (my ex- that I am still very good friends with) and Maurice. I was NOT planning for this headache... We laughed SO MUCH and danced and just acted a fool. I have the pictures to prove it.. they may come later .
I was also not planning it to be after I started WW...it was pretty spur of the moment. Needless to say , yesterday was not a good points day. I didn't expect it to be. Today is a new day- back on the wagon. I will be okay. I AM , writing down everything- with all of the points consumed, so I know NOT to do it next time.
*AHEM* why are my ears ringing. This seems all too familiar.
It is different this time. I swear.
YesterDAY Mic and I went to the St. Patty's Day parade in downtown Milwaukee.. it was a BEAUTIFUL day-- oh MAN! We met up with Mics friends and their adorable redheaded daughter. The day just FLEW by....
I need some water. an aspirin. and a banana. I am tooooo old for this.
Congrats to Vee & Jay on the birth of their son! What a perfect time of the year for babies to be born.. everyone loves spring! New life, sunshine, new beginnings!
This weekend is just what we needed. We agreed before hand that we would just have a good time, hang loose, and spend time.
Friday night we were playing cards at the kitchen table when we saw our neighbors pull out of the driveway- I mentioned that they must be going to the bar up the way ( a biker bar) and we laughed and said-- we should go and how they would be surprised to see us walking in. I was kicking some ass in cards, and suddenly she decides yes- we SHOULD go! (she doesn't like to lose haha). We walked into Mortimer's and they were THRILLED to see us.. the other patrons looked at us a little sideways ;) . We had a great time!!!! Saturday we bummed around, got some things for the basement (game night area) and had lunch at a new place (for us) then went to see Slumdog Millionaire (LOVED)... Sunday we hung loose ..
it was good.
I signed us up for "big bidnizz" yoga through the Milwaukee Park and Rec.. and I will be joining the Dub Dub (weight watchers) AGAIN on Thursday. So, between belly dancing, yoga and WW, then I should be starting to feel better about this body sooner or later.
Oh, plus we are dog sitting a puppy this next weekend-- puppies always make you feel better.
Thank you everyone, once again, for all of your kind words.. I can't tell you how much it means to know that people "get it"