Does anyone know abo.. is that something shiny?

My head is all over today -
I can't seem to stay on track, I am in some sort of lala land...

Things on my brain-

• I wish I would have spent more time with my 'rents before they went back to Florida
• Big things coming up soon - keep posted
• its almost spring. I want to be outside
• family planning
• I forgot my lunch
• so many break up's lately
• wildtree
• getting back to church
• homos from high school keep popping up!
• I miss Maurice
• I am looking forward to home sharing with Rebecca
• I hope no one dies today
• There is nothing else to look at on the internet
• why wont anyone email me?

Ugh. and that was in the last 45 seconds.

yum.

After work tomorrow, we are boarding a school bus and heading down to the dogpark. I do not know what to expect. AT ALL. I just know it costs $5 for the bus- that includes pop and beer, and the betting is $2... and they have $2 pop and beer at the track.. or park.. or whatever it is.

I decided to make everyone cookies...

I will no longer be making toll house cookies... these bar FAR are the best cookies in town, and they come from this recipe. The best thing is that is makes a BOAT LOAD...er.. bus load? of them.

My friend from high school is coming and bringing two of her friends-- I am looking forward to meeting new peeps!

Big Day!

Mic and I don't do much in the way of holidays. We aren't big gift givers for one another as we purchase things when we need. On Valentines day and each of our b-days, we DO something special. Tonight we are going to the Milwaukee Lesbian Alliance Valentines Day Dance-- we have done this before, and it is just a nice event to attend. I also had my friend from work, Rebecca, make some of her special sugar cookies for Mic. Don't get me STARTED on Rebecca's talents as a baker. If she wasn't going to school to be a funeral director-- I would co-sign a loan for her to open some sort of bakery-- she is AMAZING... anyways.. She made sugar cookie hearts and put them on sticks.. I gave her phrases to put on them... things that are funny or meaningful between Mic and I.. like "My Boo", "SPOON ME!" (her response: NO. My response.. HONEY! SPOON ME! Her response: NO. Me: You can't just go saying 'no' to me whenever you want... Her: *giggle* okay.. I will spoon you), "Cute hair", "HONEY- c'mere, look at this" (I probably say that 34 times a day), "put your mask on!" -- That one is funny because I wear a sleep mask, and that is the last thing I hear everynight-- who wouldn't want to be lulled to sleep like that??? :)
Rebecca got a rose box from a floral shop we work with regularly, and walked into the kitchen lastnight with them-- Mic LOVED them.. that made me happy!

We had our first Wildtree open house lastnight at our house-- the turnout was great and it was just a REALLY good time. Mic and I love the product so much- I think people could really tell- and they went nuts. The stuff sells itself. IT IS all DEELLISSHHH. What is totally weird, and we actually woke up this morning talking about it.. (I know! our pillow talk is roomaanntticc!!!).l..people came over lastnight, talked, ate, drank some wine (like most of the get togethers we have) and we MADE money. WEIRD!!! People were so thrilled that three guests signed up for parties.. and those are going to be a blast, too! Is it strange that when I pull out my camera, the dog poses? Yeah. I thought so.

ummm

I think that I am supposed to say that I feel bad for this kid... and poor him.. and what the heck was the dad thinking when he put this on the internet.. and blablablablab.


but DEAR JESUS this is FUNNY.

I won!

A clearblue easy monitor on ebay. Funny how they call it a "win" as I still have to pay for it.

hmph.

Problemo.. I am still the highest bidder for another one... I was bidding on two.

shit.

Big business.

My gal made my lunch for me today.

In doing that she also was proving a point that I need to bring my lunch bag home from work. Or, take it out of the car... or.. um...find it. The fact that I don't know where it is makes me less tempted to look for it-- fear of the old lunch stink.

So, she recycled a spinach container that we finished lastnight.

My lunch is bigger than the daily paper. .. and heavier than a duck (for those of you who play 20Q)

Thanks Ladies!

Okay- GOOOOD veeandjay- thank you for sharing.

I haven't liked it from the get go. I never fully grasped it. Its my fault. Everyone else seems to love it - and has no problems.

I am going to invest in the monitor that AIB is using... holy expensive.... and watch the CM etc. Now I would just like to see what options there are out there for the at home insem.. we were using baby medicine syringes... is that the best thing?

Angie and Amy .... I will clarify later.... gotta get to work... :)

oi.

Does everyone on the TTC course use FF? Is that the BEST way to track?

FF and I just don't jive.

We have had some ups and downs in our relationship- and she wants me to stick around... yanno.. commit. For another year.

I need to know if there are options.

For the 4.2 ladies out there that read this and are TTC, do you all use FF?

ciw.

Frustration

I took a look back today to see where I am compared to the month or so ago that we decided that we were going to take a break over the winter to "shape the hell up".

Um.

Uh huhhh.


You get my drift.


I emailed Mic today (our only way to REALLY talk while we are at work) and told her of my frustrations... that I needed a goal. That we haven't done anything- and yes-- its winter in Wisconsin and that sucks ass in itself. There are a million excuses I could lay out here.. my back.. the insane busy-ness at work.. all that jazz. But, there is only one person to blame. Michelle. hahha. nah. ME!!!!

So, we have decided that in April we will start again. We are on the fast track to healthier. We have done really well with our eating. I swear, this Wildtree stuff is working just as it should. It makes you FEEL better. We have been watching our recipes... etc. Of course, there is always room for improvement. .. but, yanno. I feel better that we are BOTH on board. She and I are SO FREAKING DIFFERENT. I think.. thinkthinkthinkthinkthink. All DAY. In the shower, on the drive to work, as I pee, while I am making lunch, whatever.. I think all day about WHATEVER.

She doesn't.

There are times that I will say.. honey-- what are you thinking about.... and her response would be "nothin, I am just blahablahbla" For the longest time I just couldn't take that as an answer. Who in the WORLD would not be THINKING about something?? Well, I will tell you who- my gal.

So, anyways, our conversation started over email-- and then continued this evening after work. I explained that there are times that I sometimes feel as if I want this more than her. She explained it this way.. "honey- we are on a break... why would we talk about it if there is nothing to talk about... oh wait, you are a thinker.. you have been thinking, haven't you?" "Honey- it will all work out. We need to get on track with our health.. we have a goal now... and we will work towards it"

That is all she needed to say.

So, I might not be with the thinking-est gal in town.. but she gets me.. and she even loves me even though I over think why she does... all ... the.... time.