woah

four glasses of wine, awesome company of friends out on the deck eating avacado strawberry salsa, and a few games of blink.

great night!

Difficult.

I am trying so hard to stay positive and look forward to bright spots in my/our future.

I tell ya, folks - it is tough doing that through job loss. I have to keep reminding myself that Mic is an overachiever...she is really good at working. She was a totally loyal employee - and it all threw her for a loop. Things in her world have always been "GREAT!". This is such a reality check for her... I keep forgetting that people didn't grow up the same way I did. Struggle with the same things I did... (have had 5495 jobs- by my own doing- never fired) and have thoughts and dreams like I do. She and I are are SO SO DIFFERENT, sometimes I wonder how we function in a relationship - then something will click again... and I remember.

I think, especially in the lezbionic (har) community those of us in couples are always.. "PERFECT! GREAT! FANTASTIC!" etc. Are there any couples who aren't clones of one another? Who aren't afraid to say -- "sometimes I wonder" .. ? Or.. "today was that kind of day"...

I am not saying that I am not in love with Mic. I am not saying that we are on the verge of a fallout. I am just looking for others entrapped in reality. The day to day.

How we are different:

Me: I THINK ALL THE F-ing TIME. I OBSESS. I think I obsess about obsessing.. wait.. yes. I do. omg.. *you get the idea*

Her: She takes things as they come. "what is supposed to happen, will"

Me: I daydream. It is almost to the point of it being a sickness

Her: Total realist. Why daydream? We are living in the moment. The power of now.

Me: I can have popcorn for dinner 5 days in a row... and be totally okay with that.

Her: She needs something on a plate, warm, hopefully with a veggie as a side.

Get the drift? The thing I do love, is that she is totally okay with me being me. Crazy, dreamer, mind-changer, obsessive, flighty, laugh too loud, sometimes obnoxious, ME.

Now, I just have to figure out how a good side dish for popcorn.

*sigh*

Universe: Please let her unemployment gig be up soon. I want to hear my girl laugh again.

OHOHH..

How does one sleep when there are things like this to entertain you?

WHY have I never heard of this before???


There are tons of pictures... scan in... zoom out... pan around..

http://www.gigapan.org/searchGigapansList.php?sort=popular&page=1

Today.

May the 4th be with you.


:)

Gassy Ass.

Little Jack packs a wolloping toot.

eesh.

Today was a fantastic day - we went to Anne and Staci's to babysit their kiddos. I had a GREAT time- they are such good kids, and are blessed to be part of such a wonderful family.

What was really awesome was that we were able to sit around with them after they got home, and really quiz them about their foster to adopt experience. The information was GOLDEN. I really respect the information that a professional gives you- but what I REALLY want to hear is information from someone has gotten through their personal experience.

It is 9:08 and I am exhausted and entertaining the idea of heading to bed.

attention dog lovers!

EDIT:
He is an awesome dog. He is very very excited to be at our house. He is very friendly.. and ACTIVE. Cosmo doesn't know what the hell is going on, and is kind of walking around in a depressed haze. I hope that changes.. otherwise we may have to re-think this. I have a feeling it will be okay.

He is totally trained.. no issues.. and slept in his new crate like a champ.. he actually LOVES it.

heh.

In my fog of a "voicemail" for the social worker, I guess I left my email, too.

She emailed.

We are going to an orientation on the 19th.

huh.