Patience? nope. Don't know her.

I called.. and the social worker hasn't called back. Now I am freaking out... did I leave the correct phone number, or did I leave the Internet line that I ramble off at shoe stores and to random shop keepers on the rare occasion I hit the mall..... wait.. did I LEAVE a number AT ALL?

Anyone who has had read any of the previous drawn out, blubbering posts in this blog knows that I always say that God (Goddess, Higher Power, the Universe.. etc) has a plan for us..

I have been doing some soul searching over the last month, and I thought I would share some of my ideas here.

• I was laying in bed recently thinking about the whole "kid thing"and I had a memory pop into my head from a time that I was in high school- I remembered it like I was there. I was standing with friends talking about our future.. and I said.. "Oh.. I will have a child.. but I don't think I will HAVE (as I made a gesture of something coming out of my vaj)"

• I never got pregnant - and, TMI perhaps, I have been with a couple'a guys prior to dating women.. never then, either.
  

• In my job, I have heard HORRID stories of women (and assisted families of said women) (that I wont go into) and things that have happened to them while pregnant, in childbirth, or soon after childbirth... and these were completely healthy women. I am not healthy.
  

• There is an incredible women that I have in my life who is a foster mom, getting ready to adopt, and are an AMAZING source of information... and, their kids rock. For some reason she is still in my life,when she could have walked away many years ago... and I wouldn't have blamed her. (clarification- she is important to me far beyond just an information giver)
  

For the reasons above, and for many others (I am a GREAT list maker.. I wont make you suffer) I think this foster gig is the natural thing to happen.

Now, like a hormonal teenager, I can't help but thinking.... do I call again? Will I seem like a total stalker? Do I wait for her to call me? Should I have kissed her right on the lips? ha ;)

Oh- and foster dog Jack comes tomorrow.. he has a clear-ish bill of health, and I have a feeling he will only be in our home for a short time before he goes to his "forever family" he is SUPER CUTE!!!

*gulp*

Michelle has given me the a-okay to call the social worker for foster/adoption information.

It was done 2.12 seconds after she got the sentence out.

*smile*

Its Sunday? Already?

Despite my pitiful previous post (say that 5 times) - I had a really nice weekend. Mic and I went to Bay View for our Saturday morning yoga... very enjoyable! Followed by some bumming around- and then off to see Sunshine Cleaning (it was pretty good) and out to dinner up the road at Fiesta Garibaldi. Today we drove up to Appleton for my nephew's First Communion. I had a great time with my whole fam damly and we then went over to my sisters club- Lake Park Swim and Fitness (after hours) so we had the whole club (it is a HUGE and BEAUTIFUL facility) to ourselves.. and were able to swim and hot tub and it rocked! It is 11:00 and we just got home. I am exhausted, and going to bed with a smile on my face.

I am going to send an email out to Anne tomorrow- as Mic and I have questions we need answered about the foster to adopt program

of course.

everything has changed.

Anne is tired and has a lot of stuff on her plate and accidently gave me the wrong date for babysitting.

Jack- the dog wont be in our house until next week- he has a spot on his skin and they don't know what it is-- so they are going to get it checked before we are going to bring him home until he is adopted.

I was really looking forward to babysitting. A LOT.
I was really looking forward to helping a dog..

so. this sucks.

hardcore.

whew.. made it.

First off, congrats to Those two Daddies on the arrival of their beautiful baby girl!!! How exciting- they are going to make great dads!

I am so glad that this week is over with. This holding pattern that I/we are in is making me feel a little looney bins. I have been forcing myself to just go do stuff. I went to a seminar on how to become a Realtor (I know. You dont' have to say it.) I had zumba (LOVED IT.), and have found every reason to crawl up and not talk to anyone if not needed. I just keep thinking-- if *I* am feeling like this, Mic has got to be feeling like a log. Though- she has been hiding it well.. and is keeping herself super busy during the day.

I am looking forward to tonight when we get the foster dog. Tomorrow we are babysitting for two adorable kids... and I hope we can play outside and tire them out completely so their moms will have an easy night when they get home and on Sunday we are heading up to Appleton for my nephew's first communion.

So- for anyone on the weight loss journey like I am, I highly recommend Zumba. I had SUCH a great time, and it is FUN.... you almost forget you are working out. I was really nervous and felt self conscious when I was on my way in-- and then I realized that there were women of ALL sizes.. bigger than me.. smaller then me.. older and younger... and the leader was this aawwweessommmeee woman who was hilarious! I just kept thinking-- this is like.. ghetto-fab zumba (through the city rec) I can't imagine how much fun it would be in a real class in a fitness club.. my sisters club up north (Lake Park Swim and Fitness in the Fox Valley) has a studio for Zumba.. and they have like.. disco lights.. and they CRANK the music and it is like a party. THAT would be great!!!

Have a good weekend....

aww.

I was just given a $75.00 gift certificate for a great Mexican restaurant downtown for Administrative Professional day... that was SO NICE of them!!!! I may work for some odd people.. but at least they are thoughtful odd people.

Of course I cried, as she added... take Mic, she could use some margaritas..

how true.

The first Saturday of many.

We had our first session of Big Biznizz Yoga today. Fact #1: I am fat. There is no way around that. I am trying to do something about it, and I bless all the people that were in that class today with Mic and I. Fact #2: There are some pretty big flexible people in this city. I walked in there thinking. Well.. at least I wont feel out of place. Coming from the least flexible family in the Midwest, I will be in a room of big people that, I understand, WONT be as inflexible as I, but-- taking all things into consideration..wont be like, Bob on the Biggest Loser in terms of flexibility.

I have never seen so many big people twist themselves into a pretzel while laying on their back.. EVER.

I felt like Stretch Armstrong but filled with concrete instead of jelly.

We will go back, though. I wont give up.

And ZUMBA starts on Wednesday. THAT is going to be one for the record books. My goal is to jiggle away the fat. My next goal: to find someone to carry me on their back while they run.

OH! Boston Terrier Foster update #1: We are getting a 5 year old foster named Jack next weekend! He belonged to a nice old couple who totally loved him.. but, unfortunately, they are moving into an apartment, and can't take Jack with them. So, he is coming to our home until we find him a forever family :)

I will post pictures!!!