One more to go..

Well, at Milwaukee Pridefest, they have three main entertainers (and a ton of others) as you have read, Cyndi Lauper is on Friday, and now they have announced that Saturday is Brandy. So... okay.. its cool.. I don't really know her, but I dig.

note to self: shave side of head, dye hair orange.

Awesome:


Cyndi Lauper is coming to Milwaukee Pridefest.


Crappy:


I am going to have to find someone who can shave a checkerboard into the side of my head. And- do they still sell aquanet? I have to get meself to Sally Hansen, STAT!



http://www.pridefest.com/



If you live anywhere near Milwaukee-- we are very proud of our pride- and would love it if you joined us for the weekend!

t i c k. t o c k .

Today is going by so slowly.

I sit by a HUGE picture window, so I can see how beautiful it is... I think I can almost hear laughter from the patrons and I am pretty sure I can smell the corned beef from the joint down the way.

Jerks.

Obsess.

I dont' think blogs are that bad of a thing to obsess over. I am not living in a pretend world.. it feeds my nosey cravings.. and it gives me motivation. I have found a group of diet blogs. LOVE THEM. How MOTIVATING is it to know that people out there have the same daily struggles I do? That there are others who day dream about things like: the cake that is in the fridge in the kitchen just down <----- there. (I never knew that a funeral home would have so much g-d food in it. BAH.) .

I have been working the WW pretty darn well this first week back, if I don't say so meself. I have been writing EVERYTHING down, even on GNO when I ate and drank SO MUCH. Difference this time: I am accountable for it. In the past, I could easily go to McD's after bar then go to bed 8.39 minutes later. After writing it all down, and seeing the points.. I wont be doing that mindless binging again.

I think I picked the right time for this.

this time.

:)

GNO

We have had it planned for a while-- and last night we actually went through with our Girls Night Out which consisted of Anne (my ex- that I am still very good friends with) and Maurice. I was NOT planning for this headache... We laughed SO MUCH and danced and just acted a fool. I have the pictures to prove it.. they may come later .

I was also not planning it to be after I started WW...it was pretty spur of the moment. Needless to say , yesterday was not a good points day. I didn't expect it to be. Today is a new day- back on the wagon. I will be okay. I AM , writing down everything- with all of the points consumed, so I know NOT to do it next time.

*AHEM* why are my ears ringing. This seems all too familiar.

It is different this time. I swear.

YesterDAY Mic and I went to the St. Patty's Day parade in downtown Milwaukee.. it was a BEAUTIFUL day-- oh MAN! We met up with Mics friends and their adorable redheaded daughter. The day just FLEW by....

I need some water. an aspirin. and a banana. I am tooooo old for this.

Congrats to Vee & Jay on the birth of their son! What a perfect time of the year for babies to be born.. everyone loves spring! New life, sunshine, new beginnings!

Whew.

This weekend is just what we needed. We agreed before hand that we would just have a good time, hang loose, and spend time.

Friday night we were playing cards at the kitchen table when we saw our neighbors pull out of the driveway- I mentioned that they must be going to the bar up the way ( a biker bar) and we laughed and said-- we should go and how they would be surprised to see us walking in. I was kicking some ass in cards, and suddenly she decides yes- we SHOULD go! (she doesn't like to lose haha). We walked into Mortimer's and they were THRILLED to see us.. the other patrons looked at us a little sideways ;) . We had a great time!!!! Saturday we bummed around, got some things for the basement (game night area) and had lunch at a new place (for us) then went to see Slumdog Millionaire (LOVED)... Sunday we hung loose ..

*exhale*

it was good.

I signed us up for "big bidnizz" yoga through the Milwaukee Park and Rec.. and I will be joining the Dub Dub (weight watchers) AGAIN on Thursday. So, between belly dancing, yoga and WW, then I should be starting to feel better about this body sooner or later.

Oh, plus we are dog sitting a puppy this next weekend-- puppies always make you feel better.

Thank you everyone, once again, for all of your kind words.. I can't tell you how much it means to know that people "get it"

I am sad.

Mic and I had a heart to heart. She doesn't want this as much as I.

My heart is breaking.

I don't know what this means for a future with a family.

For the last three days I have been walking around in a crazy daze, and my head is spinning. I have never seen my life without a child in it.

Frustration sets in.

I have been praying.. and just putting this in the hands of God. He has a plan for me. My life isn't ending. Who knows what the future holds.