(just part of the posting)....meditate on the gloriousness of these complications in the positive ways they affect you. For example how the smile of a stranger can brighten your day or how the old man you held the door open for last week said thank you...
I had an Oprah moment. I sat still for a second and it clicked. THAT is what I have been missing.. I have been pushing all the little bits of happiness to the side, and I have fallen into the pity party pit of 1. A party pit of many is a grand time-- but when it is just lil ol' me... booorrriinnggg.
On my ride to work I decided I would concentrate on the smalls. The lil'bits. The simple smiles. And today, I have.
As a previous commenter said about her situation while waiting for her daughter: the wait was hard... but she was waiting for the best.
Happy list for today:
- My dermatologist appointment went great, I got things removed that weren't supposed to be there and my new doc is hot in a hippy straight male sorta way...and I was given the all clear on my weird spots. Though, I felt like a geek sitting on his table with my bucket undies, my worst bra and a paper towel covering me and only one leg shaved because that is all I intended on showing him. He took it all in stride.
- one of my closest friends made "the" appointment for her and her partner to start their family rolling. eeeeep!!!!!!! :)
- Tomorrow I am ordering my rug hooking stand and I am going to the fabric store with my girls. Yeah. I get it. I am a granny. I love it!! :)
- Plans for the weekend are solidified
- Grandma B is going home from the hospital
Side note.. yanno when you get a twitch in your eye.. and you feel like everyone can see it- and you can't get it to go away. I have one in my left butt cheek. It has been there for 2 days... and it may drive me to the mental hospital.
Thank you all for sticking through this with me. xo
8 comments:
OMG the butt cheek thing is awesome!
Good for you thinking of the positive. I haven't figured out how to do that yet.
Yikes, I totally understand the pity party of one!!! I'm glad you're looking to the positive and starting to do some things that make you happy. I started doing an art journal like the ones at http://thekathrynwheel.blogspot.com/ check it out it's really fun and creative and a great outlet for the pity party feelings. I know how hard it is to hear it'll happen, it'll happen so I'm not going to say it. Just know that one day you will be a great mommy!
Now you're on the trolley!
Your Friend, m.
Staying positive is such a struggle, yet vital for happiness. I notice myself thinking, "if I had/did (fill in thing, activity, perfect body, etc) THEN I would be really happy." but the truth is that nothing can make you happy or unhappy, we all have to choose happiness every day- every hour- every moment. Thanks for the reminder.
That butt cheek thing cracked me up. Do you think people can see your ass twitching?? :)
OMG I've never had the butt cheek one...the eye I had for months when I started my job. I had to keep reminding my boss I wasn't winking at him. :)
I'm trying to drag my own butt out of the winter blues...I think I'm winning.
i'm glad you're feeling positive!
ps: all positive people are actually quite insane. you have to be to stay positive.
I like this idea of noticing the good small things just THERE in the peripheral vision of our awareness... I am going to try that...
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